Hey there, I’m Brooke.
I am a twenty-three year old college student from a small town in Minnesota. I have a great love for Jesus, coffee, music, rainy days, and seeing new places. I’ve been blessed to be able to travel and get out in the world, but it was never easy getting there. I’m here to share my adventures and the lessons I’ve learned, and continue to learn, from them.
Here’s where it all began..
It was fall of 2010, I was sixteen and home babysitting my four younger siblings while my father was out of the state and my mom had left for a few hours. I received a call from my dad letting me know that my mom had been in a car accident, and didn’t make it. He was on his way home from South Dakota and wanted to call to let me know before anyone else could.
The months after my mom’s passing were tough, needless to say. Thankfully, we were surrounded by so many wonderful friends and family members. My father remarried and us children stuck together to get through, and continue to do so.
I graduated high school and took off to college in the cities – couldn’t get out of the small town quick enough (of course). “My whole life ahead of me”, I thought. So excited/scared of what was coming next, but determined it would be the best years of my life. My freshman year I ended up becoming pregnant with a guy I was dating at the time. I came from a Christian family and was attending a Catholic college – YES, I was scared and knew I had messed up. Although it was tough, my family supported me and had my back in whatever I decided to do. This was a great relief, they are pretty wonderful people I’d have to say.
There wasn’t a doubt in my mind that I’d be keeping the child, but at the time I was scared about how this would be possible. I was living in a dorm, working part-time and simply not financially stable enough to provide the best support for a baby. That’s when I was introduced to a wonderful couple, who unfortunately weren’t able to have children. I was able to get to know this couple and knew that they were the perfect family for my baby, and they were so deserving as well.
Little Jackson was born in 2013 and was adopted into the most beautiful, caring family. To this day I am so overwhelmed with happiness for this decision, and love that I am able to watch him grow and become a young man.
From there I was greeted with a new evil. I came face-to-face with anxiety for the first time, and it hit hard. I had just gotten out of a toxic relationship that I was in far too long, and felt lost. I took time off of school and couldn’t find the energy to do a whole lot. I was overwhelmed, and I was consumed. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with my life. I felt debilitated by the anxiousness I faced everyday. It was an extremely difficult time for me.
This is where my new journey began. Where I put all my trust into the Lord and let His love lead me. This is when I learned that I am better than the anxiety that tries to consume me. This is when I decided to fight back, and this is when I will ask you to do the same.
I have always been an adventurer, an outdoor enthusiast you could say. I have a hard time sitting still and want to see it all. And so I took off, with my dog (Buffy), and headed for the hills (mountains, actually). It felt like I was being pulled toward the mountains, like this was God’s next step for me. I moved to Bozeman, Montana and wanted to start fresh and get some air in my lungs. It wasn’t easy, dealing with a disease that was doing it’s best to keep me from doing anything at all. Everything in my head wanted to keep me back, but I pushed myself and faced my greatest fear. I got out into the world, with my faith leading me, and just lived for once.
I stood on the top of mountains. I prayed, a lot. I met the most incredible friends. I danced (a lot). I swam in hot springs and floated down rivers. I camped and woke up to the most surreal sunrises. I learned yoga. I got a tattoo. I hiked and hiked. I just did things for Brooke, and I loved it.
One of my best friends told me that summer, “Find peace with yourself first, and then you’ll find happiness everywhere else.”…and that is how I decided to live my life from then on. I got completely lost, and that was when I really found myself. That was when it hit me, that I can do this.
Since then, I went back to school. I took off with my best friend and spent a summer traveling through Europe. I have gone to a new place at least once a year and discovered something I hadn’t known before. I moved back to Minnesota. I am in a healthy, happy relationship with the most incredible man.
I take each day one at a time.
Everyday I continue to battle what anxiety throws my way. I keep striving to let the good outweigh the bad, and that’s what brought me here. To let myself be vulnerable in hopes that it will help someone else – because two of us are always better than one. My goal is to continue to see the world and not let anything stop me; To step outside my shell and share my adventures. This is where God led me, and continues to allow me to open my heart to all of you. If anything, read my stories and remind yourself to trust in His plan and embrace the chaos.
Thank you for stopping by!